I have made a mistake (and in theory, I am the kind of person that takes punch straight into the chin and walks away if one deserves it - literally and figuratively). A very painful mistake (not to be misunderstood, painful within the limits of what this game does to a persons mood and mental state), a mistake that leaves, like many that have played this game for more than 3000+ days know, a mark on a persons mood. This article will also be some sort of redemption to get it out of my system...and maybe have some of my questions answered.

And, in theory, that would have been it. Friendly customer service, good people, civil dialogue that anyone would enjoy, reason and logic everywhere and a conclusion that seemed suitable.

BUT then someone, that I have been playing the game with for quite a while and apparently was appalled by my mood and behavior today asked me something that made me question a lot - How come in this game only one side gets away with mistake where the other constantly pays for them

And that hit me in the stomach like there is no tomorrow. It messed up my whole day (this was supposed to be my one day of zen, looking forward to watching Iron Mike punch again) and for a first time ever it made me ponder on raising the white flag and sodding off (I always thought Id be the kind that would switch off the lights in this game).

My gut doesnt want to accept that I am an idiot (albeit, I had my reasons) and I need to pay for it and it keeps questioning my acceptance of the situation and I dont know why?! I messed up and I pay for it...but unlike other situations, this doesnt feel right (its the damn words of my buddy that haunt me - when they mess up, they give you some candy and its all good) so I could use some of your enlightened minds to have my mind put to rest and enjoy that damn match in 3h time.