Today we will talk about actions, but we will regard saying something as a form of actions. From what our actions get motivations. It can be trying to affect someone emotionally, getting something, giving something, making someone do something and a thousands more similar reasons.

What I find common for all of them is that in any case we want to affect our emotions or the emotions of somеone else - for good or for bad.

The tricky part is that we cant look at our actions singularly, or atleast not in all cases. One action leads to an effect, to another action, to some consequences. But can all our actions be in harmony?



Everyday we reach the crossroad where what we said to someone is contradictory to what we said to a third person. We did something that is contracitory to what we said or did yesterday or which we will do tommorow. And so on and so forth through all the different variations of the up.

In my opinion, number one reason for this thing to happen is that we try to impress too much people, we try to achieve too much things, we try to affect too much things at the same time. We are losing focus, we dont mind our actions, we miss obvious caution signs - things go into the shit.

We are too self-centered, too egocentric, with big egos and big desires - to own, to control, to destroy, to create.

Fortunately or unfortunately for us and everyone else, its hardly possible to have everything, to be everything, to do everything. Life probably will be shit, until we realize this simple truth. And there is only one solution to this bothering problem - CHOICES!

You cant be a friend with all - you should make a choice with whom you will be with in the expense of losing touch with someone else. You cant have all the money in the world - you should stop at some point and invest your attention into other things as well. You cant with everyone you want - you should make a choice with whom you will be... And so on...

Actually you CAN do all these things, but you will just enter a new cycle of infinite falling....

What is infinite falling? I am sure you had a dream where you are falling into the nothing. You just fly down without seeing the end or the beginning. You ask yourself why is this happening, but you can’t answer. You don’t know when it will end, what will happen when you hit the ground. What If you don’t ever reach the ground?

Maybe If I see the concrete underneath, I will have my AHA moment and just before I smash into it, I will have an actual ENLIGHTENMENT or at least I am going to be able to catch my thoughts and think about at least trying to save myself.

I find this dream really similar to the feeling which you get when your actions start to drown you. Actions over actions over actions – questions over questions over questions – troubles over trouble over troubles – failure over failure over failure – and you can continue really far into this.

And do you know what the most curious thing is? That even if you realize everything, in most of the cases you are not going to make the choice – you can’t, you don’t want, the reason doesn’t matter. And it’s not about will or something else, it’s just like that. We’re just imperfect, but maybe there’s something beautiful in it.

What I realized after writing all this mediocre shit is that if you don’t make a choice, someone else will make it instead of you, no matter whether you like it or not.